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Jan 6, 2023, 7:27:42 PM Eastern Time: Me: Wtf is going on?!

Jan 6, 2023, 7:30:29 PM Eastern Time: : Well this place doesn't have enough staff to do anything and I'm taking medicine that killed my appetite so I'm doing a liquid diet to get the nutrients I need to have and the doctor is going to switch my insulin when I see her on the 21st. But this program has a shortage of staff so it's been a nightmare!!

Jan 6, 2023, 7:31:19 PM Eastern Time: Me: I mean... Something has to change. The path you were going down wasn't working. So, why try to get right back to where you were?

Jan 6, 2023, 7:35:17 PM Eastern Time: : I heard you guys have been having a hell of a time too!! Life is great!! I'm not going back to that path and the point of rehab was to not be sick and tired and that is all I am. I can't do much cause I don't have a car so I'm stuck and it's bothering me but I can only do a day at a time and restrictions are done with next Sunday so just got to make it to then and you better be here Sunday morning to get me and have me back here by 7!! I will make dinner!! Plus get my mail and maybe get my taxes done!! I'm trying so hard William I really am but frustrating as hell!!

Jan 6, 2023, 7:36:37 PM Eastern Time: Me: Then you should probably make that clear to Kirk. IMO, you probably shouldn't talk to each other until you're in a good spot.

Jan 6, 2023, 7:38:57 PM Eastern Time: : I have been making that clear to him. I'm going to apply for a few jobs that I didn't think about but I'm tired of puking and I want to eat but don't have any staff that has been able to take me to the store and I'm the only one who is on restrictions

Jan 6, 2023, 7:39:57 PM Eastern Time: Me: My car is working now so if you want me to bring stuff by, let me know

Jan 6, 2023, 7:41:47 PM Eastern Time: : The problem is right now I'm literally not allowed off the porch and there is supposed to be someone here but she failed her test and there is no one to fill her spot right now

Jan 6, 2023, 7:42:34 PM Eastern Time: Me: I understand. I can put it on the porch, if allowed

Jan 6, 2023, 7:43:19 PM Eastern Time: : January 15 is when I can leave here and go to the store and visit with family until 7 pm then I have to be back here...oh no that's not allowed, it's so ridiculous but then they don't have staff so what the fuck!;

Jan 6, 2023, 7:49:26 PM Eastern Time: : It will be all right cause it has to be but next Sunday I do expect you to come and get me and I will do dinner and we can have a great day together!! It's been 2 months and that will be my day 60 so I want a good day!! Lol

Jan 6, 2023, 7:51:30 PM Eastern Time: Me: Okay, well, make sure to remind me and I should be able to -- as long as the other one is behaving. If she isn't, we can try to coordinate with Janet and we can go there and cook. Not like Janet and Jimmy use their kitchen 😂

Jan 6, 2023, 7:54:18 PM Eastern Time: : Lol 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 that would be great and we do have the apartment to still go to, regardless of Niki being there step 4 or 5 you make amends so I will cook dinner for her too!! Lmao 🤣🤣🤣🤣 bring some humor to our lives! I no longer have any anger and I hold no resentment either cause that holds me back in my recovery program!!

Jan 6, 2023, 7:55:06 PM Eastern Time: Me: Yeah, I don't see that event going well. Maybe you don't but others may and I can see Kirk getting upset.

Jan 6, 2023, 7:58:21 PM Eastern Time: : He keeps telling me that he is going to back me and he will do everything to get the girls back and me too so I prepare for him to let me down but he is supposed to have a visit with the girls in the next few days so that means he is doing what he is supposed to do to get a visit

Jan 6, 2023, 7:59:11 PM Eastern Time: Me: Oh. I don't really know for sure.

Jan 6, 2023, 7:59:58 PM Eastern Time: : Lilly said that the person was sick and so her visit was changed

Jan 6, 2023, 8:01:17 PM Eastern Time: : So they are going to have one maybe this week hopefully and hopefully it pushes him to do what he needs to. I got to get a bus pass so I can do my visit at their place in dunbar

Jan 6, 2023, 9:03:44 PM Eastern Time: Me: Sorry. I was making dinner.

Jan 6, 2023, 9:04:57 PM Eastern Time: : Don't apologize you are good.

Jan 6, 2023, 9:05:28 PM Eastern Time: Me: Don't say anything to him but he is literally trying to get Cassie and I to help him get you out of there...

Jan 6, 2023, 9:08:29 PM Eastern Time: : I know so I can leave at any time I want to it's not like I'm going to be breaking the law or anything there is an alarm that sets at midnight

Jan 6, 2023, 9:08:54 PM Eastern Time: Me: I understand that but it puts you in a bad spot with the state.

Jan 6, 2023, 9:12:23 PM Eastern Time: : Not really as long as I stay clean it will be good cause I came on my own and my screens have all been clean from Oct to now so I will not risk the girls that's for sure I have learned how stupid I was and that path I will not go back down it and I will not go thru the same things again either. I have learned what I needed to that is for sure.