Dec 2, 2023, 8:55:03 AM
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Cassie:
Kathy needs to go to ER
Dec 2, 2023, 11:10:26 AM
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Cassie:
My birthday is tomorrow. Figured I would remind you lol
Dec 2, 2023, 12:48:42 PM
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Cassie:
We won't be back until after 2.
Dec 2, 2023, 12:48:51 PM
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Cassie:
2 something
Dec 2, 2023, 12:49:42 PM
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Cassie:
📸 Look at this post on Facebook
Dec 2, 2023, 12:49:44 PM
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Cassie:
https://www.facebook.com/share/p/W3QjtdaCoToCdFTv/?mibextid=WC7FNe
Dec 2, 2023, 2:52:37 PM
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Cassie:
Just watched a hit and run on a vehicle .
Dec 2, 2023, 4:16:46 PM
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Me:
I need to know how much money you need before the 15th. And I sincerely hope you haven't got any of the buy now pay later shit but I know better.
Dec 2, 2023, 4:19:54 PM
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Cassie:
I really haven't. I was going to
Dec 2, 2023, 4:20:06 PM
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Me:
I just saw a bald eagle in 817
Dec 2, 2023, 4:20:12 PM
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Cassie:
I need the cheer fees. I wanted to pay half on my credit card
Dec 2, 2023, 4:20:15 PM
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Cassie:
No way
Dec 2, 2023, 4:20:45 PM
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Me:
Right after marathon. Was on the left, flew over me. I looked closely. It was definitely a bald eagle.
Dec 2, 2023, 4:21:08 PM
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Cassie:
I've never seen one here you got lucky . Should have got a picture
Dec 2, 2023, 4:21:21 PM
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Me:
Didn't have time.
Dec 2, 2023, 4:21:41 PM
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Me:
Wasnt sure it was a bald eagle until it was over me. No where to pull over.
Dec 2, 2023, 4:21:53 PM
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Cassie:
Damn that sucks
Dec 2, 2023, 4:22:14 PM
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Me:
And you didn't give me a dollar amount. I am trying to account for everything. We can't do without food and you need way too much gas money.
Dec 2, 2023, 4:23:34 PM
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Cassie:
Do you want me to pay half my cc
Dec 2, 2023, 4:23:54 PM
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Me:
I can't make financial decisions without amounts.
Dec 2, 2023, 4:24:15 PM
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Cassie:
Well I'm asking so I can count that up
Dec 2, 2023, 4:24:46 PM
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Me:
... It's simple to figure out what you owe.
Dec 2, 2023, 4:24:56 PM
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Me:
I'm driving...
Dec 2, 2023, 4:25:53 PM
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Cassie:
360 for cheer and that because I'm late on half the payment from November because I needed gas
Dec 2, 2023, 4:26:32 PM
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Cassie:
And 235.50 for cc that is 595.50
Dec 2, 2023, 4:32:00 PM
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Cassie:
I don't know about you but I am really proud of both the girls in their cheer. And Kynsley is catching on so fast on the new team
Dec 2, 2023, 4:36:59 PM
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Me:
Ugh God dammit. This fucking sucks.
Dec 2, 2023, 4:37:21 PM
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Cassie:
What
Dec 2, 2023, 4:37:27 PM
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Cassie:
I don't have to pay my credit card
Dec 2, 2023, 4:37:38 PM
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Cassie:
It's not due until 28th
Dec 2, 2023, 4:37:54 PM
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Me:
It has to be paid at some fucking point.
Dec 2, 2023, 4:37:59 PM
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Me:
Theres fucking 600.
Dec 2, 2023, 4:38:26 PM
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Me:
I'll talk to you later. I'm not going to argue. It's not worth it.
Dec 2, 2023, 4:40:23 PM
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Cassie:
Doug said he would go out for drinks with me for a couple hours
Dec 2, 2023, 4:54:41 PM
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Cassie:
Is that cool
Dec 2, 2023, 5:25:35 PM
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Me:
I don't care.
Dec 2, 2023, 5:25:52 PM
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Me:
Send me what you wanted me to get from the store. I'm at wm
Dec 2, 2023, 5:28:33 PM
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Cassie:
Ground beef
Bread
Milk
Snacks
Chicken
Cereal
Shredded cheese
Fruits
Peppers
Laundry sanitizer
Dec 2, 2023, 5:46:56 PM
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Me:
Can you please clean the bottom drawer in the fridge
Dec 2, 2023, 5:51:14 PM
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Cassie:
Yeah I was getting ready to work on that anyways
Dec 2, 2023, 6:04:26 PM
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Cassie:
It's cleaned out
Dec 2, 2023, 6:15:04 PM
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Me:
Alright. On my way back.
Dec 2, 2023, 6:15:38 PM
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Me:
Well, not going to have much money for Christmas. Had to get some groceries, plus your bills, mortgage, etc. So, we'll see.
Dec 2, 2023, 6:15:41 PM
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Cassie:
Okay
Dec 2, 2023, 6:15:47 PM
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Me:
I guess I'll send some money for your bday present.
Dec 2, 2023, 6:16:10 PM
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Me:
I'll do that when I get back.
Dec 2, 2023, 6:16:20 PM
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Cassie:
No.
Dec 2, 2023, 6:35:46 PM
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Cassie:
Are you coming through garage
Dec 2, 2023, 6:35:54 PM
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Cassie:
Or front door
Dec 2, 2023, 8:17:20 PM
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Me:
Im going to do the rest of my Xmas shopping tonight. If we keep pushing it off, it won't get here in time. Everyone is Xmas shopping. Shipping will slow down.
Dec 2, 2023, 8:19:47 PM
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Cassie:
Well, I have. List of stuff the kids want and need
Dec 2, 2023, 8:20:03 PM
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Me:
Where
Dec 2, 2023, 8:20:21 PM
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Cassie:
I gave you the paper
Dec 2, 2023, 8:22:00 PM
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Me:
Alright. Ill do what I can. I can't spent a ton. I've given you $800, $400 on groceries that won't last very long. Still have my phone bill and such. Already accounting for over 1700 in bills next pay check.
Dec 2, 2023, 8:24:18 PM
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Me:
I'll let you do whatever you're doing. I'll talk to you later. Trying to look for shit, watch the kids, I made food for Kathy, dishes, etc.
Dec 2, 2023, 8:27:06 PM
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Cassie:
Doug and I were talking about the schools
Dec 2, 2023, 8:27:47 PM
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Cassie:
Well I really want to get them what they asked Santa for. And boys need clothes. Like pants and such
Dec 2, 2023, 8:32:57 PM
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Me:
Alright. Well, I'm not rich. We have bills. Electric bill is $430. Not like I'm really getting anything for myself. It'd be fucking nice if you actually pushed for the money back for the boys medical bills. Anyways. I'll talk to you later. It's not worth another pointless fight.
Dec 2, 2023, 8:34:29 PM
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Me:
You know what, I'm just going to send you 1000. I only have $1670. Do not do any buy now pay later shit. Don't fucking do it.
Dec 2, 2023, 8:34:51 PM
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Cassie:
Well I was going to try to spend a total of 500
Dec 2, 2023, 8:34:57 PM
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Cassie:
Don't send me that much.
Dec 2, 2023, 8:35:14 PM
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Cassie:
I have been telling him and he's supposed to be helping
Dec 2, 2023, 8:35:40 PM
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Me:
Yeah right. You put 1500-2500 on the paper. And got mad when I mentioned it was too much.
Dec 2, 2023, 8:37:21 PM
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Me:
I'm going to stop. Have fun for your birthday. Better than mine was. Night.
Dec 2, 2023, 8:39:24 PM
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Cassie:
Well I'll lower it . I wanted them to have a better Christmas than last year
Dec 2, 2023, 8:47:41 PM
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Me:
And I've been trying to do that by getting things from aliexpress.
Dec 2, 2023, 8:50:30 PM
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Me:
I'm just depressed as fuck. I don't want to do anything and I can't do much. I don't really have any friends. I don't have motivation to do much. And every time I mention something to you to try to lesson my load, it's a fight.
Dec 2, 2023, 8:52:55 PM
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Cassie:
I'll look on there and send you stuff
Dec 2, 2023, 8:53:56 PM
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Cassie:
I'm trying to get better. I really am. It's not easy
Dec 2, 2023, 9:07:32 PM
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Cassie:
Ugh I have a buzz
Dec 2, 2023, 9:12:02 PM
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Cassie:
I need to sober up
Dec 2, 2023, 9:12:15 PM
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Cassie:
I'm such a lightweight now
Dec 2, 2023, 9:12:24 PM
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Cassie:
It sucks
Dec 2, 2023, 9:48:40 PM
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Cassie:
Hey
Dec 2, 2023, 10:04:21 PM
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Me:
Yeah
Dec 2, 2023, 10:07:29 PM
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Me:
??
Dec 2, 2023, 10:16:09 PM
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Me:
Alright.
Dec 2, 2023, 10:17:28 PM
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Cassie:
I have a buzz in trying to sober up . I need to drive home,
Dec 2, 2023, 10:17:33 PM
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Cassie:
Please don't go to sleep
Dec 2, 2023, 10:21:10 PM
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Me:
I'm cleaning your fucking room.
Dec 2, 2023, 10:21:18 PM
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Me:
Sawyer dumped out all the god damn salt again.
Dec 2, 2023, 10:27:01 PM
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Cassie:
Omg
Dec 2, 2023, 10:27:13 PM
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Cassie:
You didn't have to I was going to tomorrow
Dec 2, 2023, 10:27:21 PM
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Cassie:
I'm eating so I will sober up.
Dec 2, 2023, 10:33:43 PM
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Cassie:
Omg
Dec 2, 2023, 10:34:02 PM
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Cassie:
Probably why we are coughing
Dec 2, 2023, 10:37:36 PM
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Me:
And you wonder why I bitch about it being cleaned.
Dec 2, 2023, 10:49:48 PM
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Cassie:
Ugh that's disgusting
Dec 2, 2023, 10:51:51 PM
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Me:
I'll admit that I have moments where I'm being a dick and don't need to be. And I do usually apologize for that. But, for the most part, when I bitch about something it's because it's for the best of everyone. Things being clean: it's not just about looks. It's about dust, viruses, bugs, etc. If we can be more clean, people won't get sick as often. It's also easier to do the periodic cleanups, if we don't let things get out of hand. It's not only your job. The kids need to be more responsible. But you need to pay more attention and force them to be more responsible. Bitching and arguing with me about it, in front of them, doesn't help. It doesn't effect you. It puts more burden on me. I'm the one who ends up taking the burden and cleaning, replacing, etc etc. That's why I'm so stressed. You never get it.
Dec 2, 2023, 10:59:03 PM
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Cassie:
Well I am trying to be better . I'm not great or perfect and I never will be. But I'm trying the best I can.
Dec 2, 2023, 11:00:07 PM
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Me:
Again, it's not just you
Dec 2, 2023, 11:11:17 PM
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Cassie:
Be watching your phone
Dec 2, 2023, 11:23:00 PM
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Cassie:
I think there is a cop behind me
Dec 2, 2023, 11:23:14 PM
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Me:
Then turn.
Dec 2, 2023, 11:24:45 PM
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Cassie:
I'm on Kilgore I can't really turn
Dec 2, 2023, 11:25:00 PM
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Me:
It's not a cop.
Dec 2, 2023, 11:25:49 PM
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Cassie:
I'm
Freaking out
Dec 2, 2023, 11:25:52 PM
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Me:
Stay off your phone. Pay attention. Don't rush. No pressure. Just drive. Be safe.
Dec 2, 2023, 11:48:26 PM
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Me:
So?
Dec 3, 2023, 12:06:13 AM
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Me:
You know what sucks. This is what happens every birthday. I do my best for you. I do things that you want done. My last birthday, you stayed at Jesse's and said that I didn't have to stay home and clean. And I didn't. But you weren't going to. The one before, you ordered food for me, without asking. Then stayed at the bar instead of leaving with me. But, I don't do that to you. That's the summary of our relationship.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:08:57 AM
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Cassie:
Well I will be home all day. I told you I would be back tonight. I didn't ask you to do anything . But I appreciate you doing it tonight . I really am trying to be better. If I wouldn't have ate I don't think I would have made it back home.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:09:35 AM
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Me:
Alright. Just forget it. Night.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:14:46 AM
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Me:
Just go to everyone else you talk to. I'll finish what I was doing tomorrow.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:15:57 AM
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Cassie:
I wasn't talking to anyone
Dec 3, 2023, 12:17:20 AM
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Me:
Yeah, alright. Always on your phone. I know better.
If you actually appreciated what I did, you would've actually looked at what I did. But you haven't. So don't spew bullshit. I don't need it.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:19:53 AM
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Me:
I'll talk to you later. I don't want another massive fight. It solves nothing.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:20:02 AM
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Cassie:
I'm getting ready to go to bed anyways.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:24:49 AM
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Cassie:
It's looks good. I didn't know you put my dresser in your room. I know you talked about it but didn't know you were actually going to do it
Dec 3, 2023, 12:28:36 AM
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Me:
Alright. I wanted to surprise you and do something that you wanted. But, the fact that you fucking sat at Jesse's while I was here for my birthday and the fact that I know you're hiding shit from me weighed on me.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:34:53 AM
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Me:
And, yeah, I know you're still hidijg shit from me. I see a lot more than you realize. And, no, I'm not spying on you. Body language, and the nuances of what you say tell me.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:38:09 AM
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Me:
Alright. Happy birthday. Good night.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:38:24 AM
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Me:
I'm firing up my chainsaw.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:38:35 AM
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Cassie:
I'm not hiding anything . I was at coal miners with Doug. Nothing special. Thank you.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:39:00 AM
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Cassie:
Sawyer and Alayna are in here trying to go to sleep.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:39:10 AM
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Me:
Actually. I'll wait.
Alright. I know you are. But whatever. I'll have to confront you to admit it. It's not worth it anymore. A little bit over a month and we will be done.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:40:22 AM
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Cassie:
Yeah because that's what you want. But I'm not arguing all day .
Dec 3, 2023, 12:41:28 AM
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Me:
I wonder why. You told me you got the food stamps for two months. I knew that was a lie when you told me that. I'm fairly certain you already got the credit for shit this season.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:42:26 AM
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Me:
You think I enjoy fighting? No. I don't. I hate being lied to. And you've done it so much that I have to question everything. I don't enjoy it. I fucking hate it.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:43:38 AM
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Cassie:
It was only supposed to be two months. Got what credit?
Dec 3, 2023, 12:43:58 AM
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Cassie:
I don't enjoy fighting either it gives me migraines and puts me in a really bad mood.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:44:20 AM
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Cassie:
And ends up me having an episode so you can tell everyone I'm crazy
Dec 3, 2023, 12:44:31 AM
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Me:
Alright. I quit. Night.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:49:41 AM
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Me:
I'm cleaning up dog shit. Something the boys could have done. But, no. I'll fucking do it.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:53:13 AM
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Me:
I hate my god damn life. I hope I die soon. Good bye.
Dec 3, 2023, 12:59:58 AM
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Me:
I don't want to live anymore. I'm going to write down my Google password and my phone passcode. It'll be in my wallet.
Dec 3, 2023, 1:22:50 AM
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Me:
I've typed out about 30 things I've wanted to say. In the end, it doesn't matter. Nothing will change. I'll never know the full truth. I won't kill myself, as much as I want to. Things won't ever be right between us. You've kept too much hate for your perception of things that just isn't correct. I can't say exactly what happened, because I just don't remember. I don't remember the vast majority of my life. It's not great. Its pretty shitty. I've done a lot of things and I don't remember most of it. I know I did not have sex with her and I did not do anything remotely sexual with her. You purposefully deleted the messages between you and him. Twice. You can say you didn't do this or that but that doesn't matter. Just like you don't believe me. I can't believe you, because of that. You have called me a piece of shit in front of my children more times than anyone can count. I didn't want a divorce. I wanted you to stop prioritizing others above me. That won't happen. So the divorce should happen. I'll be broke. Its not great for me. I don't get anything out of it, other than being independent. This is why I never wanted to get married. I am absolutely miserable. I don't even have interest in finishing any of the projects I've started because you've bitched about them. All I do is work and pay bills. You only care about me when you want to go do something. It is what it is. It's time to end it. And I don't want it to be my life. But I'm at the edge.
Dec 3, 2023, 1:35:34 AM
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Me:
I know. I'm always talking to myself. I'll stop messaging you. For good. I can't do this anymore. It's not good for my mental health.
Dec 3, 2023, 1:42:37 AM
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Me:
And this is why I get frustrated with the boys. Why?? And you'll let them get away with it. You didn't pay for it. You dont give a god damn fuck. Yeah, im done.
Dec 3, 2023, 1:44:48 AM
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Me:
I'm filing on Monday. I will be filing for fault. I'm done. I cannot do this shit any more. Fucking trash all over this room. And you fucking fight me over this shit. Fuck this god damn shit.