Dec 18, 2022, 2:01:20 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Night. I'm ordering a part tonight and hopefully it'll be in by Monday. If so, I'll go stay with someone else for a little bit.
Dec 18, 2022, 2:16:19 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I wish you would've just gone to the fucking hearing the other day and got this shit over with
Dec 18, 2022, 2:22:13 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
We've been here too many times. I don't want to talk anymore. It doesn't go anywhere. It doesn't get any better. You'll never show me any proof, of any fucking thing. I am too fucking depressed.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:46:44 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I hope you don't mind: I'm taking the van to go to a couple stores. I'm sure I'll be back before you guys wake up but, if not, please let me know so I can do grocery shopping
Dec 18, 2022, 9:49:24 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Are you at grocery store ?
Dec 18, 2022, 9:49:57 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Not yet. But I can go.
Dec 18, 2022, 9:50:37 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
You said you left
Dec 18, 2022, 9:50:57 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I did. I'm not at the house but I am not at Walmart
Dec 18, 2022, 9:51:19 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I'm on my way to going home Depot. I can go to Walmart instead.
Dec 18, 2022, 9:52:15 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
It's okay . I just thought you were back or at Walmart
Dec 18, 2022, 9:52:33 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I don't need anything .
Dec 18, 2022, 9:57:21 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
It's snowing lol
Dec 18, 2022, 9:57:29 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I've heard 12 times now lol
Dec 18, 2022, 9:57:41 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yeah.
Dec 18, 2022, 9:57:54 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Nice xbox, BTW
Dec 18, 2022, 9:58:27 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
That's the second one for the boys
Dec 18, 2022, 9:58:39 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yeah. Great.
Dec 18, 2022, 9:59:03 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
What ?
Dec 18, 2022, 10:02:02 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Nothing.
Dec 18, 2022, 10:04:43 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Okay.
Dec 18, 2022, 10:23:40 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
If you are still at a store; can you get hooks
Dec 18, 2022, 10:23:58 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yes
Dec 18, 2022, 10:24:37 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
If I send you some money can you grab shampoo and such
Dec 18, 2022, 10:27:07 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I guess.
Dec 18, 2022, 10:27:38 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Never mind sorry I asked
Dec 18, 2022, 10:28:15 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Just send me what you want. I'm already here.
Dec 18, 2022, 10:29:01 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Where ?
Dec 18, 2022, 10:30:09 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Walmart.
Dec 18, 2022, 10:30:40 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Sensodyne
Tooth paste and cheap tooth brushes for everyone
Dec 18, 2022, 10:38:36 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Is that okay or too much ?
Dec 18, 2022, 10:43:04 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I'm working on it.
Dec 18, 2022, 10:50:10 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Anything in garage
Dec 18, 2022, 11:02:27 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Okay never mind sorry I asked
Dec 18, 2022, 11:35:11 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Do you ?
Dec 18, 2022, 11:35:40 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Wtf. I guess I'll give you some.
Dec 18, 2022, 12:30:31 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I was even going to build you a make up station / vanity. But you think that the lies that I say are on the same level as what you've been lying about? Fuck that. I'm good.
Dec 18, 2022, 12:44:42 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I made hooks for the ornaments. They're on the fridge.
Dec 18, 2022, 12:49:53 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Alright. I'll just talk to you another time.
Dec 18, 2022, 2:16:27 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Can you get a pair of underwear for Sawyer snd my white and black razor from your room ?
Dec 18, 2022, 2:19:33 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
God fucking dammit. I fucking guess.
Dec 18, 2022, 2:22:02 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
The more and more that I think of this shit, the more I get fucking mad. I don't think I can keep going. When the fuck is it going to end? You haven't even told me when you wrote that. You won't even tell me why. It's clear you were thinking about him. I'm done with it.
Dec 18, 2022, 2:22:56 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
You don't regret a damn thing. I am so fucking miserable. Thanks.
Dec 18, 2022, 2:53:50 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I don't know why you keep saying I don't regret anything.
I can't tell you why because I don't know. I do regret hurting you. It took you years to tell me you regret the things you did. Maybe you did before then I don't know.
This is why I wanted to try counseling . Seek out other help.
I really wish none of anything that's happened, happened. With you or with me.
I also have wish both of us weren't so depressed and just I dont know.
Dec 18, 2022, 2:55:03 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I don't know where we fell so much that it ended up like this. Yes, I am partially to blame to for a lot of fights, and I do regret that.
Dec 18, 2022, 2:55:08 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
You regret it but you're imagining being married to him. K. Got it. No. Fuck this.
Dec 18, 2022, 3:14:10 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
You've already started getting me out of your life anyways. Might as well just get it over with.
Dec 18, 2022, 3:50:52 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I just wrote you a 4 page letter . I hope you can read it
Dec 18, 2022, 4:26:33 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
You just had to smoke another fucking cigarette, didn't you??
Dec 18, 2022, 4:27:58 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
You know I smoke a lot when I'm you know. I don't know why this is a surprise
Dec 18, 2022, 4:32:56 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
It's a waste of fucking money. Not that you give a fuck.
Dec 18, 2022, 4:33:58 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Thanks.
Dec 18, 2022, 4:37:48 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yeah, don't bother trying to chat with me the rest of the day. Thanks.
Dec 18, 2022, 4:41:05 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I just fuck everything up
Dec 18, 2022, 4:42:07 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Don't act like you give a fuck
Dec 18, 2022, 4:47:55 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Can I cut more hooks
Dec 18, 2022, 5:13:42 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Which leg
Dec 18, 2022, 5:14:12 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
... any day.
Dec 18, 2022, 5:14:51 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Come on. I'm sitting here in front of the fucking dog
Dec 18, 2022, 5:15:04 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
The back one
Dec 18, 2022, 5:15:06 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Right
Dec 18, 2022, 5:17:28 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I think he twisted or sprained it. No wounds. I don't think it's broken.
Dec 18, 2022, 5:19:53 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Alright. I'll TTYL.
Dec 18, 2022, 5:22:52 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Should I take him to vet
Dec 18, 2022, 5:31:28 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
No.
Dec 18, 2022, 5:55:52 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I guess I'm going to take that fridge and Xbox back. Because I agree boys got to go to Disney world .and taking her iPad to be fixed
Dec 18, 2022, 6:08:07 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Well, this is going to be a shitty evening.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:09:55 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Why?
Dec 18, 2022, 6:11:34 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Unlock the van
Dec 18, 2022, 6:11:51 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Because it'll take you 4 fucking hours to do this
Dec 18, 2022, 6:12:05 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Uh no because they close at 8
Dec 18, 2022, 6:14:13 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yeah, that doesn't mean anything
Dec 18, 2022, 6:15:54 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
And returning that toilet seat at hurricane Walmart
Dec 18, 2022, 6:25:33 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Fuck I left my purse that k iPad is in
Dec 18, 2022, 6:26:08 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Can you put it out by garage so I can
Dec 18, 2022, 6:26:35 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Get it
Dec 18, 2022, 6:28:14 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
It's on counter
Dec 18, 2022, 6:30:05 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Hey? I'm back at the house got my purse
Dec 18, 2022, 6:30:09 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
For
Dec 18, 2022, 6:30:25 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Okay
Dec 18, 2022, 6:30:56 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I'm by driveway
Dec 18, 2022, 6:34:32 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yeah, Im pretty sure I'm done. That letter was pretty much the same shit you've been saying to me. Yeah, this sucks. I'm fucking crying. But, I don't think you're going to stop. The fact that you don't even know why you wrote it, is a fucking problem. I am not going to compete for your attention. I've given you everything I have to give and you've stabbed me in the back. Over and over. I can't do it anymore. I know there's more and i can't take another knife in the back.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:38:30 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I thought I wrote a pretty heart felt letter. I tried to be as as genuine as possible. I didn't think it was bad
Dec 18, 2022, 6:39:08 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
But it's the same stuff you've been saying. Nothing new. You still haven't told me the full truth. You are still hiding shit. And I'm done with it.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:39:51 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
It was kind of new stuff it's how I felt
Dec 18, 2022, 6:40:52 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Okay. Well, I'm sorry that I was distant. Hopefully you'll never experience the shit I've been through.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:42:47 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
When you used to flip out on me and push me to the edge, and over, I didn't go out and find another woman to become buddies with. But, you did to me.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:44:04 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yeah, this isn't going to help anything. I hate my fucking life. I will not hurt myself because I don't have the balls. But I wish I could just fucking end it all. I am so fucking miserable.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:44:57 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Im full on fucking crying. I am such a fucking bitch.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:45:35 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I didn't mean to hurt you at all.
I didn't want to upset you. I cried the whole time writing that to you.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:46:41 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
What can I do to make this better ?
Dec 18, 2022, 6:47:08 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
No, you didn't mean to. You didn't think about me. It's alright.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:47:15 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I was trying to take fault for things I have done wrong
Dec 18, 2022, 6:47:24 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Nothing. This has gone too far.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:48:16 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I am not good with words in person about how I feel because I just get mad.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:50:12 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Alright.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:50:51 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I guess I just made everything worse
Dec 18, 2022, 6:51:01 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I'm sorry wasn't my intention.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:52:46 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
No. It didn't help anything either. I'll talk to you later.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:53:38 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
This is why I don't tell my feelings very often
Dec 18, 2022, 6:55:29 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
No, you should have told me your feelings before you did all this shit.
Dec 18, 2022, 6:56:13 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I did try to but you blew me off
Dec 18, 2022, 6:56:20 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
It doesn't matter. I dont want to fight. I can't do it anymore
Dec 18, 2022, 6:56:43 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yeah, well, my fucking bad for trusting you. Learned my fucking lesson. Happy?
Dec 18, 2022, 6:58:41 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Omg I didn't blame you for everything : I took blame for all of my parts
Dec 18, 2022, 7:04:40 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
When I tried to tell you things you would say you weren't in the mood or were busy.
Dec 18, 2022, 7:10:29 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Alright. I wouldn't be at all surprised if you stop by Jesse's tonight. But it doesn't matter either way. You don't give a shit. You've already made sure you have almost everything you can take from me.
Dec 18, 2022, 7:15:56 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
You fucking are, aren't you?!
Dec 18, 2022, 7:16:24 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I haven't really heard from her today. And I I'm not . I'm stopping at hurricane Walmart to take the toilet seat back after I leave Best Buy .
Dec 18, 2022, 7:17:36 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I guess it's not my business anyways. Sorry. I won't ask again.
Dec 18, 2022, 7:19:52 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Don't be like that please
Dec 18, 2022, 7:20:56 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I'm sorry but it is like that. I have to separate myself. You're still hiding shit and I cannot take being stabbed in the back again.
Dec 18, 2022, 7:26:36 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Well this really sucks I was hoping that the letter would make things better and it's made it worse.
Dec 18, 2022, 7:27:37 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yeah, well, I was hoping for the full truth and for you to stop me hiding shit. So much for that. Dueces.
Dec 18, 2022, 7:30:22 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Okay. I'll
Just leave you alone
Dec 18, 2022, 7:31:08 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yeah, I figured. Bye.
Dec 18, 2022, 7:33:04 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
That was the last chance I can give for you to come clean about everything. I can't do it anymore.
Dec 18, 2022, 7:38:55 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I love how you turned off your location sharing with A. That builds so much more confidence. I'll just block you so I stop
Dec 18, 2022, 7:40:20 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I didn't turn off any location things .
Dec 18, 2022, 7:43:33 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I'm still at Best Buy
Dec 18, 2022, 7:44:41 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Alright.
Dec 18, 2022, 7:45:43 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I didn't say you were lying.
Dec 18, 2022, 7:45:55 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Sorry. I'll leave you alone.
Dec 18, 2022, 7:45:58 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Night.
Dec 18, 2022, 8:03:18 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Ugh k is going to be mad
Dec 18, 2022, 8:07:36 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
They Saying 3-4 days
Dec 18, 2022, 8:08:32 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Of course. It's the holiday season. Fucking great.
Dec 18, 2022, 8:09:02 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Good fucking bye. Im going to stop before I get mad.
Dec 18, 2022, 8:12:26 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Okay. Well it's not my fault they said it's usually sooner
Dec 18, 2022, 8:13:21 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
It's your fault that it's taking this long to get it in.
Dec 18, 2022, 8:15:10 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
It doesn't matter. It won't change anything.
Dec 18, 2022, 8:16:43 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Please just leave me alone. I'm too emotional and I will do a poor job of controlling myself.
Dec 18, 2022, 8:16:55 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I'm tired as fuck too.
Dec 18, 2022, 8:33:05 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
They said it should be a day or two. But it's Sunday is why it may be an extra day. They were busy. So many people needing screen protectors put on their phones
Dec 18, 2022, 8:34:25 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Alright. Well, the girls are tired and dinner is almost done. I'm sure it'll be a while still.
Dec 18, 2022, 8:35:26 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I think K is getting sick....
Dec 18, 2022, 8:36:11 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I'm on my way to Walmart
Dec 18, 2022, 8:36:18 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Shit show to get out of the mall rd
Dec 18, 2022, 8:36:52 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Alright.
Dec 18, 2022, 8:39:00 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
What kind of sick like flu sick ?
Dec 18, 2022, 8:39:45 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
She was saying her eye was bothering her . It was red but I didn't see anything in there
Dec 18, 2022, 8:39:52 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
And I had her washing it out
Dec 18, 2022, 8:41:54 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
She is saying her stomach is upset and she doesn't look well. I have her 1 Pepto bismol
Dec 18, 2022, 8:42:29 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Ugh fuck .
Dec 18, 2022, 8:43:27 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
What are all these book and binders in the back seat
Dec 18, 2022, 8:43:53 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Kathy's shit.
Dec 18, 2022, 8:44:37 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Are we keeping it or something ?
Dec 18, 2022, 8:45:18 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I guess. Is it really that important right this minute?!
Dec 18, 2022, 8:46:02 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
No. I just didn't know what they were
Dec 18, 2022, 8:49:00 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
And I answered that. And you continued on. I'm trying to make dinner
Dec 18, 2022, 9:01:06 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Dinner is done. Sorry it's so late
Dec 18, 2022, 9:02:26 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Okay it's fine thank you
Dec 18, 2022, 9:02:57 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I'm tired as fuck and I need to get my car finished
Dec 18, 2022, 9:05:34 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Okay sorry. Can I use laptop tonight and tomorrow
Dec 18, 2022, 9:05:55 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I guess. I'll just talk to you later.
Dec 18, 2022, 9:06:37 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I have to get caught up on some school work
Dec 18, 2022, 9:06:50 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yeah, and I need to get caught up on my fucking car.
Dec 18, 2022, 9:08:43 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Don't worry about it. I'll push through being tired again and work through the night.
Dec 18, 2022, 9:11:53 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
No please don't
Dec 18, 2022, 9:12:22 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Why couldn't you just tell me the whole fucking truth, upfront?! Why did you have to do this fucking shit!!
Dec 18, 2022, 9:12:29 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
What the fuck do you care?!
Dec 18, 2022, 9:15:20 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
The biggest problem is you fucking continued!!!!
Dec 18, 2022, 9:15:28 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
You may not think o care about you but I do
Dec 18, 2022, 9:15:41 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
You have ripped my fucking heart out and fucking stomped on it!
Dec 18, 2022, 9:15:49 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Over and fucking over!!
Dec 18, 2022, 9:16:20 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yeah, you can stop. I don't give a shit about myself. I don't need you to.
Dec 18, 2022, 9:17:00 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I'm sorry . I'll just keep it all to myself from now on
Dec 18, 2022, 9:17:55 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yeah, still haven't learned your fucking lesson. Fuck me.
Dec 18, 2022, 9:18:16 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
My feelings
Dec 18, 2022, 9:18:53 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yeah, and that's what caused you to step out on me. Holding your fucking feelings in.
Dec 18, 2022, 9:19:24 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Just leave me alone. I need to finish my car and try to take care of the kids. I have to fucking get out. I fucking have to. I am losing it.
Dec 18, 2022, 9:20:06 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Well you're mad at me for saying my feelings and what's on my mind so how much good did that do me
Dec 18, 2022, 9:21:02 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
No, I'm mad at you for what you fucking did!!!
Dec 18, 2022, 9:21:26 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Stop fucking telling me how I'm fucking feeling
Dec 18, 2022, 9:22:32 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I'll just see you whenever the fuck you get back. Like I said, 4 hours. Already been 3.
Dec 18, 2022, 9:26:38 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I'm leaving Walmart
Dec 18, 2022, 9:28:23 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I'm tired of hearing you say you care about me then you turn around and fuck me over. No, you don't care about me. Youd like to think you do but no fucking way.
Dec 18, 2022, 11:00:33 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Alright. I guess I'll talk to you another time.
Dec 18, 2022, 11:01:15 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
You were sleeping when I came in so I left you alone
Dec 18, 2022, 11:04:41 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Did you put dinner away
Dec 18, 2022, 11:07:39 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Cool. I'll assume not.
Dec 18, 2022, 11:09:53 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Of fucking course not. God fucking dammit. Good fucking bye!!!!
Dec 18, 2022, 11:12:31 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I came in and got kids ready for bed. Kynsley had gunk in her eyes so I think she has pink eye. And I didn't want to bother you.
Dec 18, 2022, 11:13:25 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
K. I can't fucking do this shit anymore. I fucking can't. I'll be up working on my fucking car. Bye!
Dec 18, 2022, 11:16:00 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
You're going off in me and I didn't really know where dinner was . I looked in the refrigerator.
Dec 18, 2022, 11:17:17 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Fucking oven. You could've just woke me up and asked me. I didn't need to be fucking sleeping anyways.
Dec 18, 2022, 11:18:11 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Well kids were running buck wild when I came in. I don't know how you were sleeping
Dec 18, 2022, 11:18:50 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Because I am fucking exhausted! I am fucking spent! I have been busting my ass for fucking weeks!! Not that anyone fucking notices or gives a shit
Dec 18, 2022, 11:23:06 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
FUCK! And I need to go to the fucking court house. God fucking dammit!! I hate my fucking life. I never get a fucking break!!!
Dec 18, 2022, 11:23:32 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I don't have school
Tomorrow
Dec 18, 2022, 11:24:15 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
Yeah, I still have to fucking work.
Dec 18, 2022, 11:24:56 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Kynsley has an infection in her eye so I cannot send her to school
Dec 18, 2022, 11:24:58 PM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I'll talk to you later. This shit isn't your problem. I'll fucking deal with it. I'm quite used to having no one to talk to.
Dec 18, 2022, 11:26:54 PM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
They close at 430/5. Get off at 4 and go to court house or call and see if I cans do it
Dec 19, 2022, 12:05:49 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I legitimately hope I don't survive this. I just don't want to do it anymore. I just want to quit everything.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:06:26 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
Survive what? Like what do you mean ?
Dec 19, 2022, 12:08:20 AM
Eastern Time:
Me:
I don't want to fucking live anymore.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:09:37 AM
Eastern Time:
Cassie:
I wish you didn't feel that way.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:15:25 AM
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Cassie:
I know I don't want anything to happen to you. The kids don't .
Dec 19, 2022, 12:15:46 AM
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Me:
Yeah, alright
Dec 19, 2022, 12:16:15 AM
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Cassie:
We may have issues but I still don't want you to die.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:18:32 AM
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Me:
I just don't want to do it anymore. I've put everything i have into this life and I just keep getting fucked.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:20:54 AM
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Cassie:
You don't think it could get better ?
Dec 19, 2022, 12:22:00 AM
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Me:
It never fucking does. Everyone always fucks me
Dec 19, 2022, 12:23:09 AM
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Cassie:
I am sorry you are having a rough night. I'll try to make it better for you.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:24:46 AM
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Me:
Rough night? Yeah, alright. It's been a rough 20 fucking years.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:25:37 AM
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Cassie:
Okay I can't make up for those . But I can try to make sure you have a better rest of the day
Dec 19, 2022, 12:25:51 AM
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Me:
I'm tired of being fucking depressed. I can't trust anyone. I cant rely on anyone.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:27:10 AM
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Me:
I don't need or want anything from you.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:27:41 AM
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Cassie:
Maybe you won't be so depressed if you went out and did things so you're not at home. That's why I want you to go places with me .
Dec 19, 2022, 12:28:05 AM
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Me:
I HAVE NO FUCKING FRIENDS
Dec 19, 2022, 12:28:13 AM
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Cassie:
Reached out to people you know.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:29:00 AM
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Cassie:
Prior marines, go to a bar join vfw a legion
Dec 19, 2022, 12:29:08 AM
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Me:
I don't fucking know anyone anymore. Everyone I used to know is you know, Kevin, Darrin, Jesse, Cierra, Suzanna. That's pretty much it. Anyone else is in hardcore drugs.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:29:19 AM
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Me:
Just stop.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:31:36 AM
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Me:
I'll be alright. I'll figure this shit out. Or I won't. It's not your problem. I've been dealing with this for much longer than I've known you.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:32:37 AM
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Cassie:
I am trying to help. I know I have put you in this place . So I was hoping to try and fix it
Dec 19, 2022, 12:33:12 AM
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Me:
Yeah, fix it. Okay.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:33:26 AM
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Cassie:
Well try to make you feel better.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:34:13 AM
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Me:
Don't worry about it. Just another fucking day.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:34:47 AM
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Cassie:
I wish you would let me try to comfort you.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:35:31 AM
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Me:
You comfort me?! You're the reason I am pushed here right fucking now.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:36:23 AM
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Cassie:
Then, I am clearly making this worse. I'm the last person you want to talk to. I'm sorry.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:36:56 AM
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Me:
You still can't even say you've told me the whole truth or that you've told me everything. It's never fucking ending.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:38:27 AM
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Cassie:
I did tell you everything.
I'm clearly not going to help you out of you being so upset, since I am the cause.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:39:17 AM
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Cassie:
We left the garage I know that's why you left.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:40:53 AM
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Me:
I don't believe you told me everything. Not for one fucking second. I mean, how many times have I heard that??
It doesn't even matter. You filed for divorce and have kept the shit going. So we are where we are. It'll be done with, one way or another, soon enough.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:41:12 AM
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Me:
Yeah, I don't need you to see me struggling. Another thing for you to use against me.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:41:58 AM
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Cassie:
I am not using anything against you. I was really trying to help do you didn't need to feel like you shouldn't live anymore.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:42:41 AM
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Me:
Yeah. Reverse the fucking clock and stop fucking me over.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:43:04 AM
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Cassie:
I wish I could go back and change things .
Dec 19, 2022, 12:43:39 AM
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Cassie:
Quite a few
Dec 19, 2022, 12:44:40 AM
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Me:
Yet you still fucking do it. I don't fucking understand!!!!
Dec 19, 2022, 12:45:03 AM
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Me:
Yeah, I'm sure I'm one of those things you'd change.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:45:33 AM
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Cassie:
No. I'd definitely change the fighting and all that
Dec 19, 2022, 12:45:40 AM
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Me:
I have to finish my car. I have to get out of this fucking house. I cannot be here much longer.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:46:09 AM
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Cassie:
And the reason we have been fighting . That's what I wish I could change
Dec 19, 2022, 12:47:16 AM
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Cassie:
Where are you going ?
Dec 19, 2022, 12:48:22 AM
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Me:
Bullshit. You did that shit less than a fucking month ago. 4 FUCKING WEEKS, MAX.
I just need to get out of the fucking house.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:49:19 AM
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Cassie:
No I am talking about the shit we have been fighting about for years.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:49:46 AM
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Cassie:
Which has led to kind of where we are .
Dec 19, 2022, 12:50:04 AM
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Me:
Alright.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:50:21 AM
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Me:
I'll just talk to you later. I have to get this done.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:50:50 AM
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Cassie:
Okay. I'll probably still be awake
Dec 19, 2022, 12:57:40 AM
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Me:
I just need this shit over with. You've held it over my head for long enough.
Dec 19, 2022, 12:58:43 AM
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Cassie:
So they're no trying anymore?
Dec 19, 2022, 12:59:34 AM
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Cassie:
There is no **
Dec 19, 2022, 12:59:36 AM
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Me:
Are you fucking kidding me? I have been. You have not been. The entire fucking time you've either been talking to him, writing your fucking name with his, or stopping by his fucking house!
Dec 19, 2022, 12:59:48 AM
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Cassie:
Ugh there isn't anymore
Dec 19, 2022, 1:00:26 AM
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Cassie:
I have not been talking to him the entire time.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:00:45 AM
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Me:
And said you needed time to make adjustments. Fuck that shit. The previous 10 fucking years haven't meant shit.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:00:50 AM
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Cassie:
I stopped once to drop pull ups off that's it.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:00:58 AM
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Me:
No, I don't know how fucking long you have been.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:01:02 AM
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Me:
Alright.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:02:23 AM
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Cassie:
What
Dec 19, 2022, 1:04:49 AM
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Me:
I really don't want to fucking deal with anyone right now. FML
Dec 19, 2022, 1:05:55 AM
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Cassie:
Ugh crap. I had said I don't care because I figured you guys already messaged
Dec 19, 2022, 1:05:57 AM
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Cassie:
My bad
Dec 19, 2022, 1:06:40 AM
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Me:
Fuck my life. Fuck my god damn fucking life
Dec 19, 2022, 1:07:17 AM
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Cassie:
I told him to call you or get a hold of you. If you were good with it .
Dec 19, 2022, 1:07:25 AM
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Me:
I can't fucking do it anymore!!!!!!!
Dec 19, 2022, 1:08:04 AM
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Cassie:
Okay I'm sorry. Tell him not to come
Dec 19, 2022, 1:08:25 AM
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Me:
No, youre fucking not. Stop fucking saying it when you aren't
Dec 19, 2022, 1:08:34 AM
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Me:
You can come down here and fucking meet him. I'm fucking out.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:08:56 AM
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Cassie:
No. I'm not dealing with that .
Dec 19, 2022, 1:09:46 AM
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Cassie:
I'm not staying down there all night
Dec 19, 2022, 1:10:23 AM
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Me:
You said it was okay, it's on you. Fuck this shit. I'm fucking tired of being overlooked and disregarded.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:10:44 AM
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Me:
My keys are on the key ring. My car cannot be started.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:11:14 AM
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Cassie:
Normally he asks you before asking me and you tell everyone it's my decision. So it puts me on the spot
Dec 19, 2022, 1:11:32 AM
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Me:
And I normally fucking talk to you first. Oh wait. I always do.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:11:49 AM
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Me:
I didn't fucking answer. You really think I want to deal with people when I want to fucking die??.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:11:57 AM
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Cassie:
I didn't really know until last minute about earlier
Dec 19, 2022, 1:12:39 AM
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Me:
Alright.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:12:41 AM
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Me:
Bye.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:14:51 AM
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Me:
I hope I fucking drown in my own fucking fluids.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:15:22 AM
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Cassie:
Please don't say that
Dec 19, 2022, 1:15:45 AM
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Me:
Oh, my bad. You might call the fucking cops on me again
Dec 19, 2022, 1:16:53 AM
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Me:
You can tell him I went to fucking bed or whatever the fuck. I don't care.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:17:21 AM
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Cassie:
No I'm not calling the cops
Dec 19, 2022, 1:17:29 AM
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Me:
I still haven't answered him and I don't plan on it. I'm too giving depressed to deal with people.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:17:58 AM
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Me:
Alright. I can see that you're more than likely falling asleep. I'm telling you, I am not going down there. I did not agree to it and I don't fucking want to deal with it.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:18:44 AM
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Cassie:
I am not asleep.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:19:08 AM
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Me:
Just doing something else. Alright. Well, the laptop is in the garage. Night.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:19:46 AM
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Cassie:
I'm laying here with Kynsley on top of me
Dec 19, 2022, 1:20:09 AM
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Me:
And I'm sure you're doing something else on your phone. You always are.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:20:35 AM
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Cassie:
Been trying to read some of my school work
Dec 19, 2022, 1:27:05 AM
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Cassie:
I don't think he's coming
Dec 19, 2022, 1:36:25 AM
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Me:
You know, you could just ask.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:37:36 AM
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Me:
The boys can have my Xbox. You can gift it to them. You can take it with you when we divorce. I'm going to write the girls and Sawyer vouchers.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:40:25 AM
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Cassie:
I told him you weren't in mood for company . So I don't know if he's coming or not
Dec 19, 2022, 1:40:37 AM
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Cassie:
No please stop.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:40:44 AM
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Me:
Great. You couldn't just say I was asleep???
Dec 19, 2022, 1:41:20 AM
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Me:
Uh, no. You're the one who kept this shit going. Couldn't even fucking tell me you asked for it to be postponed. Then acted like I was in the wrong for being upset about it.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:42:45 AM
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Me:
I have told you over and over that I can't keep going with this shit over my head. You have not gave a single fuck.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:42:49 AM
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Cassie:
I didn't think you would be mad about it being postponed.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:43:13 AM
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Me:
BECAUSE YOU NEVER LISTEN TO ME
Dec 19, 2022, 1:43:50 AM
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Me:
My opinion and feelings have never meant shit to you.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:44:09 AM
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Cassie:
Yeah if you say so.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:44:34 AM
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Me:
Really?? Really?? I can probably show.you hundreds of times where you disregarded what I said.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:45:50 AM
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Me:
And I bet you couldn't find more than a dozen where I did the same.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:48:01 AM
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Cassie:
There have been a few times . But I don't really say much about it someone comes over or whatever xx
Dec 19, 2022, 1:48:16 AM
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Cassie:
Minus the xx not sure why that's there
Dec 19, 2022, 1:48:17 AM
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Me:
It's not just that. That's not what I said.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:48:29 AM
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Me:
Oh, you do though. Uh, JJ.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:49:10 AM
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Cassie:
Yeah. She wasn't supposed to be here
Dec 19, 2022, 1:49:45 AM
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Me:
Yeah, because I was fucking her in the garage 👍
Dec 19, 2022, 1:50:13 AM
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Cassie:
He was told no more of his whores here and that's what I meant
Dec 19, 2022, 1:51:26 AM
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Me:
Yeah, but you went way overboard. Saying I got my dick sucked and I fucked her, etc etc. Fucking ridiculous. I've never, never acted like that towards you.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:52:18 AM
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Cassie:
And she was still here an hour later
Dec 19, 2022, 1:52:53 AM
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Me:
Alright. I mean, I didn't say shit about Jessica being here. When she's talked shit about me. And she was in the house i fucking pay for.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:52:59 AM
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Me:
But that's right. I'm the bitch.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:53:45 AM
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Cassie:
I asked. And he was not even here that long .
Dec 19, 2022, 1:54:04 AM
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Cassie:
She
Dec 19, 2022, 1:54:07 AM
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Me:
Wtf are you talking about
Dec 19, 2022, 1:54:15 AM
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Me:
Oh
Dec 19, 2022, 1:54:21 AM
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Me:
Like I had a fucking choice.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:54:24 AM
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Cassie:
I asked if she could come over for dinner
Dec 19, 2022, 1:54:29 AM
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Me:
If I said no, it would've been a fucking shit show.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:54:46 AM
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Me:
And Im not that way. I can avoid people. I'm fine with it.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:54:47 AM
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Cassie:
But why was it okay for that bitch JJ to be here
Dec 19, 2022, 1:55:20 AM
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Me:
I didn't say it was okay. But it wasn't a big deal to me. I didn't pay her any attention.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:55:48 AM
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Cassie:
I told him plainly not to bring anyone and he still did it.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:56:02 AM
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Cassie:
And then a 2nd day
Dec 19, 2022, 1:56:21 AM
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Me:
Yeah, he was wrong. But so wrong that you fucking hit my window and yell in the street? So wrong that you make a huge fucking deal of it?
Dec 19, 2022, 1:58:30 AM
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Cassie:
I guess I shouldn't get mad about it at all.
Dec 19, 2022, 1:58:54 AM
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Me:
Mad, sure. Flip the fuck out and cause a fucking scene, and accuse me of cheating? No.